Month: August 2018

 

The ego develops in the cognitive years of childhood as a tool to actualize Spirit.  It then becomes distorted and polarized based on the cultural and societal demands placed upon it.  I think of the ego and my inner child as joined.  This is where I find most of the destructive patterns in my reality.  The veils, density, and programming in this matrix indoctrinate the ego into duality instead of unity.  Duality, an expression of Ego, implies we are not one. Duality, in its truest forms, with awakened application of the third dimensional tools, is a gift from Source.  At one time, this was a magnificent playground of harmony and expression.

Let’s look at the Twin Flame paradigm. I have read hundreds of articles and thoughts on the Twin Flame paradigm as it presently permeates this reality.  Any relationship that does not endure through time is or can be a flame experience.  It is up to each of us how we perceive and facilitate our knowing and growth in these dynamics.  The more tumultuous the dynamic, the more opportunity Soul is presented with to grow.  There are examples of twin flames together in this reality. The percentage, however, is minuscule compared to the population.  The latest statistics indicate that less than one percent of the current population can manifest an enduring “Twin Flame” relationship.  It does not mean it’s not possible, this means we are not there yet as a global consciousness.  And I’ll add twin flames are not necessary to awake and to grow.

A twin flame has a contract with you.  Flames often have many lifetimes and pasts with your projection in the 3D or are Soul Tribe coming into aid.  These shards make an agreement to “Spark” one another in their group.  Every true twin flame experience I am personally aware of has ended.  A flame appears, rocks your world, and then leaves.  I have seen this time and time again.  Through flame “Runners” and in flame suicide.  Most contracts between twin flames are not for a lifetime.  This model produces suffering.

Having said that, I believe twin flame relationships that endure become soul mate relationships.  This is not a given.  It is a function of timing.  As in any relationship, timing is everything.  Two souls come together with like goals and like ego wounds.  Goals and Soul change constantly in the flux of this matrix.  For two Souls to find one another and remain on parallel paths is very difficult.  Instead we bog down in our wounds and miss the messages.  And one of the twins runs.

Eartha Kitt said it wonderfully, in an interview on love.  She was asked if being in love was in essence falling in love with her own reflection in another.  And she said, “Yes.”  Isn’t this true? We love how we reflect in the ones we love.  But, when a refection, the mirror, is distorted and riddled with wounds there can be no accurate reflection.  See?  This opens many doors to self-awareness within the “Reflection.”  When we see the dynamic for what it is; a catalyst for self discovery through our reflection in another that is also part of our whole.  We then we can begin to understand our wounds.  With this awareness we can heal.

There is no need for suffering, when we understand the real purpose behind our time here.  In nature, hawks, beavers and barn owls are monogamous.  These animals mate for life.  That is not how the human has evolved.  It is borne out in the statistics of the day.  High divorce rates.  Many “Millennials” are choosing not to marry.  The masculine physical is wired to spread his seed.  The feminine physical is wired to discern a good mate, because she is the one expected to raise children.  All of these expectations come from religion and the ensuing societal and cultural demands.  We’ve make ourselves unwell trying to fit our expanded knowing into these small boxes.  Step out of societal and cultural limitations and listen to your soul.  Soul cares little for the dramas here.  We are awake, aware beings.  The old paradigms no longer fit.

The new soul coming in is less veiled in their understanding of the 5D model of connection.  Marriage was originally a contract to protect property.  It was not about love. Religion then attached a spiritual meaning to union.  Then all were expected to be monogamous. Humans at best are serial monogamists, having one bonding relationship after another.  Some endure for a decade or so but most dissolve when wounds and ego cannot be healed.  All the expectation around how relationships “Should be,” has been mandated in religion, society and culture.  And most Soul is still entrenched in this paradigm.

The Twin Flame is an old friend.  It is not the physical. It is an energetic bond much larger than 3D would illustrate.  This is why the energetics are so overwhelming. Most often the connection is deep, stirring and awakening sexually.  We are touching parts of ourselves in the whole.  Pardon the pun.  We feel the Oneness for an instant.  It is the highest in both of you, working together to break open the heart and the connection to the whole.  Often twin flames come in and shake up everything we think we know.  The highest in all of us is not concerned with petty 3D constructs of manipulation and imposing our will on another, but in the development of our Soul.  It is about breaking the veils and programming we are all subjected to.

My personal experience with twin flames has been difficult and sad. In some instances it has even been devastating.  Until I began to understand the pitfalls of the paradigm.  The last was a two year whirlwind in which I was constantly having to set boundaries for my less awake partner.  But this difference in development didn’t stop me from exploring every fear and expectation I held around relationships.  He was perfect in his wounds to show me where I needed to grow.  He presented issues around cultural norms and gave me an opportunity to really look at my ideas and fears involving relationships.  The fears of rejection and abandonment were big for me.  I let them go.  I let it all go.

I must add here that one’s awakening is not contingent on a partner.  I had my first activation of the Kundalini five years ago in Peru.  There wasn’t a flame for many miles.  It happened after a ceremony involving “The Grandfather,” San Pedro.  My second arose during sex with my partner in 2014.  It was interesting, but by no means was he responsible for my expression of these energies.  Only I was.  He just happened to be there.  And the third, and most intense, happened while I was alone at home, after meditating in July of 2015.  Let go of the idea that someone else is necessary for you to grow and raise your vibration.  We, alone, are responsible for what we create here and our experience as part of the whole.

Is it possible that we are everything we need to be our highest?  Yes!  Is it possible that this whole paradigm is rampant with suffering?  Yes!  Is there a deeper understanding of these dynamics?  Yes!  Is suffering an ego construct? Yes!  It is in our attempts to fit our round-peg-selves into what square pegged society says we are.  Is this reality map warped?  Yes. Then how do we find our way back to a balanced and realistic understanding of the dynamics embedded in these situations?

We enter this life and leave this life alone.  We take our first breath and our last breath alone.  We agree to this journey to express for self enlightenment and for the whole.  We are not guaranteed company along the way.  Relationships and family are a choice and many contracts are made and broken along the way.  Some are from old patterning and can be released because we have already outgrown the lessons inferred.  No one is bound to a mate or existence that doesn’t serve their highest.  There is no one out there that is going to awaken you. As I say “I can light the pilot, but I cannot fuel the furnace for you.”  We are afforded, based on timeline and circumstance, billions of reflections. Each of these is an opportunity to spark this broader awareness.  But when confined to the 3D model of ego-thinking we forget it is our reflection.

Remember that you are a whole and sovereign being; complete and perfect. Shards of Soul, reflections of you, come and go.  We, as projected individuals in this matrix are responsible for our own growth.  To wait around for someone else to awaken and guide us is silly and unproductive.  We are each co-creators in a vast matrix of 3D.

The 5D model of relationships is a new paradigm.  It is a model that promotes growth in union for both partners.  There is no sacrifice in this dynamic.  No suffering.  Just awareness of the journey.  Nothing is personal.  There is an understanding that all soul is wounded.  And a conscious decision to grow with another and, through awareness, heal ourselves and the collective.  And when a soul makes a mistake, it is just that a mis-take.  Like filming a movie, “That didn’t work.”  And we decide to try again.

So many have embraced the 3D model of relationships.  “I am not valued in society unless I have a mate.”  “I cannot live a productive and whole life without what society tells me I need to be happy.”  The American dream is a house, two car garage, 2.5 kids, blah blah.”  In order to have value in this society it takes another to make me whole!”  I call Bullshit! And with the ego developing during the early years, we are stuck with this unrealistic model.  I ask you to reevaluate the models and energetic patterns you were programmed with.  And to see and live your wholeness without believing that it takes another for you to be whole and accepted.

I am continuously approached by those in twin flame dynamics.  Many who base their sense of self on whether they have a mate.  I say, “this paradigm is dying.”  It is time to self-actualize and take responsibility for our own growth in awareness and wholeness.  This is possible with or without a partner.  Many young women I have worked with have had kundalini awakenings with a partner.  And they assume it was their partner!  I have had three kundalini awakenings.  Not one of them was contingent on having a partner.  This is an inside job.  People come and go.  The only one I walk this entire lifetime with is me!  And my relationship to myself is paramount.  It defines my relationship with all other Soul.  If I do not honor myself, it is impossible for me to truly honor another.  The best advice for those seeking a partner, is do your work and become the best partner yourself.

It’s all about attraction.  We attract those of the same or similar energetics and wounds.  This is Source’s way of helping us see ourselves.  If you are not attracting quality partners, then there is inner work to be done.  It is time to become the quality partner you seek.  This this sets an energetic that attracts only the best.  In the interim, we heal ourselves.  Look at what you attract, the wounds and ego dramas.  These are issues to be addressed from within.

We attract broken people, because we are broken.  We continue to project our baggage onto others. We ask, “Why did he do that?” Instead of fixing, within ourselves, what attracted the wounded soul.  Instead ask yourself, “Why do I care?”  “Why am I in this dynamic?”  “Why do I tolerate being treated this way?” Often the answer is not pretty and the lessons are about boundaries. I will be writing an article to follow on boundaries for the empath.  We lack self-esteem or we would rather have someone than feel alone.  We find ourselves “Settling” for what’s available.  This is not a foundation for a growing, lasting relationship to self or to another and rarely produces a dynamic for growth and self-awareness.

As stated above, the basic tools shared in “The Energetics of Suffering II” also apply here.  When I was seeking a mate I would watch what I attracted.  This was the best indication of my own healing and growth.  For many years I attracted very broken partners.  I realized that to improve my reflection, I must improve the image I was reflecting and heal myself first.

I have outgrown the concept of needing a partner.  This is freedom.  Freedom from what a broken and very ill society says I need.  Freedom to express myself at my highest in all moments.  No longer is it necessary to meet other people’s expectations.  And best of all, I have dropped all expectations of others.  There are no “Shoulds” left in my life.  A should is a judgement, and frankly I’m not interested in judging anything or anyone any longer.

This is how we bust the paradigm of suffering.  By no longer choosing to play the game by the old rules. By following our deepest most cherished inner knowing.  By being the whole amazing beings that we are.  It is an unfolding as we become aware of the deep wounds we have harbored and reinforced for lifetimes.  We find new and novel ways to navigate this reality and the suffering paradigm.  When actualized in Source, nothing is personal except how we choose to respond, not react, in any given dynamic. (The Energetics of Suffering II).  And with this freedom, we take charge of our lives and become aware that every instance is a choice.  Every situation an opportunity to express ourselves in the highest.

More to come on the Empath/Narcsissist model in the next article and the exploration of boundaries.

Much Love and Peace Beautiful Souls,

Leslie

 

 

 

IT’S ALL THE SAME THING!

We have touched on the basics. And I will elaborate on the premises in this article and add some new dimensions to how we perceive our reality and the pitfalls of our filters and wounds.

We have touched on the basics, and now I will elaborate on the premises in this article and add some new dimensions to how we perceive our reality and the pitfalls of our filters and wounds.

First let’s take “We are one,” and “We are all energy.”  These statements are the same.  We all come from one Source and one energy source.  This energy is all that there is. It is Source seed and will always be, ad infinitum.  What we do to one another we are, in effect, doing to ourselves. So how do we work with these knowings? By striving to be the best version of ourselves in every moment.

Time does not exist.  It is a construct of this matrix.  There is only this moment.  The past is spent and the future is without form.  So, how do we navigate the flood of information and insights we receive continuously?  This is about the present moment.  I am not saying anything new here, just a reminder.  As Lisa Unger says, “The past is history.  The future is a mystery. Today is a gift. That is why it’s called the ‘Present’.”  Our first exercise is to find out how “In the moment” we are.  Most of us live in the past, by reflecting or live in the future, by projecting. As we unfold we can begin to grasp our deeper thoughts and see what patterns we are running unconsciously.

How do we find our moment?  We find our moment by becoming introspective; by knowing that this is a construct we temporarily inhabit.  It is a school for expression.  Our job is to be conscious of our expression in every moment.  And there are over seven billion shards of consciousness working with us every instant.  This is deep work.  Empaths naturally pick up energy of the oneness or the collective consciousness when in other soul’s fields.  We can tap into the group, community, global, and often universal consciousness without effort.  We often wonder why we feel what we feel.  “I was fine a moment ago? What happened?”  We are processing emotions for the group.  This is something the empath is wired to do, and initially often does very unconsciously.

It is time to bring these wounds into our awareness.  There are basically two ways to handle any circumstance.  We either react or we act.  And each tells us a lot about how deeply we have explored ourselves in relationship to the whole.  How often do you think back on a dynamic and muse, “Why did I do that?” The answer is usually that a button was pushed and old or new wounds surfaced.  We do not control when our buttons are pushed.  When we are reacting to a situation, we are in our past wounds or projecting into a future that does not yet exist.  We are projecting them into our current reality.

An example; I have a friend, Meg. Her mother made her wear her hair short all of her childhood.  Meg hated it.  As soon as she turned eighteen, she began to grow her hair and decided never to wear it short again.  This is a wound.  It doesn’t sound like a deep wound, but a wound none the less.  She then had a daughter, Patricia. Meg’s mother, suggested to Patricia, now 14, that she might like her hair short.  Patricia loved the idea.  Meg, on the other hand, was very distressed at this development and reacted from her own wounds and insisted that her daughter not cut her hair.  This illustration shows how one’s wounds are pushed upon the moment.  Patricia had no baggage around the length of her hair yet Meg was attached to her own story and drama and projecting this drama onto a new and entirely different situation. To “react” is to pull up old hurts and express in the old wounded ways; i.e, When we are carrying an old tape of distant trauma into the present moment.  When we react, we are not in the moment.  We are reflecting on past wounds and sometimes projecting our wounds onto others with no such baggage.  This work begins and ends with knowing and healing the self.

Acting, on the other hand, is creation.  To react is to play out the same old behaviors in response to new stimuli that feel like or resonant with old wounds.  To act is a conscious choice to respond to the present situation in the present moment.  Not pulling up old wounds or projecting “what ifs” into the future.  “I’ve seen this before so ill just react now.”  This is a snap judgement and takes no real effort.

When we break down the old patterns that drive our egos, we begin to see every situation with new eyes.  This allows us to break the pattern of reacting in unmindful ways and begin to act differently in similar dynamics.  It allows us to step back from the big screen, like we talked about in part I, and see that we have baggage and that we can now choose how to respond.  We can address and heal our wounds.

When we are in our moment, we always present as our best version.  And the wisdom that is afforded with clear thinking changes in every moment.  As Don Miguel Ruiz so eloquently said in The Four Agreements,  “Always do your best.”  At times we are ill or fatigued. Our best on those days is not the same as our best on a day we feel energized and enlivened.  This growth will not happen overnight.  This is an unfolding.  There will be progress and there will be missteps.  As a dear friend often reminds me, “Be kind to you!”  When we have mastered true self knowing and self-care, nothing presenting in our moment is life-threatening or dire.  We have available to us the tools and wisdom of the universe.  We now know that we are energy and that the energy has only one source.  Therefore each and every soul is energy in motion and expression.

Lets carry this forward and discuss duality and change.  As with energy and oneness, duality and change are the same thing. Duality lays the groundwork for an amazingly shifting and dynamic set of possibilities and realities.  And I use the plural here because it is one set of circumstances with 7 plus billion interpretations.  And these interpretations are based strictly on what that individual is focusing on.  It’s all one thing being viewed from billions of individual shards of consciousness.  If we did not have change, which the polarity of this matrix ensures, we could not discern anything.  All would be the same, always.  If there is no hot water, how would one know when it becomes cold.   With duality and change we live in a dynamic illusion that affords us everything we need to heal ourselves and in doing so heal the collective.  Many are being called now to awaken and start their work so that they may help guide others to the new paradigm. Wake up Sister’s and Brother’s.  The time is now!

The first four premises are actual only two. We are one energy and we interact in a dualistic world that is designed to be in constant flux.  This is the reality we have chosen as a collective.

Another tool for introspection is when we project, we are forcing our reality onto another. We are expecting another to act and react like we think they should.  Should is an individual concept.  Do you See?  There is no should in reality.  Reality just is.  How often have you said “Why did he/she do that?” It really doesn’t matter why they acted or reacted as they did.  What really matters is, “Why do I Care?”  “What wound was triggered and how do I heal it?” and “How will I choose to respond.”  “How can I best act consciously to help transmute this situation and this energy?”  This is how we heal ourselves and heal others in our process of awakening.

Whenever we are triggered introspection is the best option. Not blame or judgement. Just take a look at what ego-programming you have embraced subconsciously.  Evaluate your judgments (Judgement being moments of not bothering to think just reacting instead) built into your paradigm.  And remember there are seven billion plus individual paradigms that reflect into our consciousness.  And it’s all ONE.

These tools, evaluating whether you are in your moment and bringing it back to your own map of reality, are simple to use.  They can be used in any situation.  I have a saying, “Life is simple, it’s just not always easy.”  We have very basic energetic patterns running through this reality matrix.  To live this knowing with integrity is a moment to moment journey.  In each moment we are afforded all that we need to awaken.  We must learn to navigate a new paradigm.  The ego is not the enemy.  The ego is a 3-D tool from Source! The ego has just been trained in unproductive ways.  Introspection and being present are the keys to unlocking the Ego’s amazing purpose here. Try these tools.

My next article will speak to the “Twin Flame” paradigm vs. the idea of Soul Mates.  I will explain the energetic patterns and reasons for this construct in our present reality.  I will also talk about the pitfalls of relationship expectations and what they create in these dynamics and why.  It is a tool for the individual reflection of our current perceptions of ourselves.  Then I will delve into the mindset of victimhood and how these paradigms are outdated and are no longer needed to advance energetically in this matrix.  Suffering is a construct.

 

Much Love and Light Dear Souls,

Leslie

 

 

WE ARE ONE!

IF GROWTH IS NOT RESISTED, IT DOES NOT HURT!

Before we begin I would like to state that all the information contained here is my perception. It is the product of a lifetime of seeking and of enumerable changes and opportunities along with five years of intense growth, reading and research.  If it doesn’t resonant, no worries. However, if you are truly ready to shed the suffering paradigm, please do your best to suspend your disbelief and look at these models as energetic patterns. If you are on a timeline, it has a set of energetic themes coupled to the global and even galactic consciousness.  The patterns can change as timelines do. But again, if talks of past lives, timelines, agendas and connections to source are too far fetched there are more “down to earth” three dimensional insights that might help you. I will present in this series of articles, perspectives I have found that support the overall global knowing that will help to dissolve these antiquated concepts.

I follow no religion or philosophy other than my internal structure.  So I don’t hold one vocabulary. From my knowing, all the stories of the Ascended Master’s visits to Gaia were to share the same message. The resulting morphing and changing by the human filters of the times, such as cultures, societal constraints, and agendas, colored and distorted the message.

As an intro to this topic I believe that awakening for the majority of beings is an unfolding.  I will share my insights on this incredible journey, with simple and concise ideas. There are some core concepts that I will share that helped me break my patterns and capture my thoughts for deep insights.  I think of it as taking the whole and making it into a sound bite. A simple reminder of who we are as we navigate these challenging times. An example, one of my favorites being from social media is, Martha Beck’s, “You spot it you got it!” This is a deep spiritual and psychological concept in a nutshell.  It speaks to recognizing our own perceived flaws in others.  And if you can define it in another, it is a quality you also possess.  But the simple affirmation can trigger the entire concept. We will discuss oneness, energy, change, and duality to start.  These premises are important in building the foundation for releasing the suffering paradigm.   There are simple tools to change our perceptions. We can then begin to embody the knowing that we are not these “meatsuits” we lug around.  We are eternal beings with a very small amount of consciousness dropped into a very dense physical reality and a vessel riddled with paradigms and programs. Add to that a very limited life span, hurtling through space on a giant hunk of rock.  Reality! Now if that doesn’t make you think that we make mountains out of molehills, what will?

First Premise: We are one.  We all come from the same Source which permeates our reality.  Even language reflects the higher path. Donald Neale Walsch, in “Conversations with God”, “Atonement  broken down is at-ONE-ment. The only difference between reactive and creative is where one chooses to place the C.”  So based on this knowing, we are all one and we are having an awakening to our own multidimensionality.  With awareness and understanding of the energetics of our beings, it is easier to let go of these unproductive patterns. When you are in the trenches it is very hard to see. Here is an example. When someone stands too close to a wide-screen television they are unable to see the bigger picture, they perceive only pixels.  When one can step back from the television space is created for broader vision. We are living our lives in the trenches looking at the pixels instead of the bigger picture. But, we are beginning to make space for ourselves and each other to embody the higher functions and raise our physical form to broader levels of perception.

Second Premise: We are all energy.  Everything is energy. Energy afforded to us to grow in this environment. We are “Frozen Light,” the co-creators of our reality. We are Universal Source energy slowed down to experience the illusion of separateness.  All things in this reality have patterns and frequency, scale and scope. I will elaborate on this later as it relates to the Twin Flame, narcissist/empath models. These models can bring enlightenment on how these patterns have been used to encourage the victim mentality within the dynamics in this matrix.

Third Premise: The only real constant in this matrix is change.  Change is the catalyst, and I have found that change is a force of nature in and of itself. It is essential to generate the productive growth environment this planet provides.  Change is like the Borg. “Resistance is futile!”  Now I am not going to paint a “peaches and cream” picture here. Our matrix is polar.  All aspects of it are polar.  Polarity and change are intricately entangled. If there are good entities and/or agendas here the opposite also exists in our consciousness.  But, here is where I see us missing the energetic boat. It’s all one. As the saying goes, “Right wing, left wing, same bird.”  The differences perceived are just that, perceptions.  And we forget no bird can fly with only one wing.  Heads and tails are two sides of the same coin.  I could go on and on. There are really very few signature energetic patterns running in this consciousness at this time.  The diversity of “stories” here stem from our gifts of observation and individual expression.

Fourth Premise:  Duality is not our enemy.  Duality is a gift. When souls are aligned and at peace; when the thoughts, emotions and actions are in accord. This reality is bliss.  A playground designed to teach a wide range of expression. We are in school folks.  It is a demanding and convoluted maze to navigate.  Regardless of any belief system, it is what we make of it.  The ego is a tool for the third dimension.  It is a construct of the polarized matrix we inhabit. This is an inside job!  The third dimensional world is the reflection of our global consciousness. The wars we fight are the reflection of our inner battles spilling into the global grid. To begin to see basic understandings of the world and realities we live in here, from an energetic level.

With some core concepts we can begin to discern and make wise, productive choices.  When a new concept presents itself, and it resonates deeply,  I ask my highest to help me “embody” it.  By doing so, I am embracing a new reality and asking not to understand, or just apply it.  I am asking to become the embodiment of this concept.  To live my present with a new awareness.  I can then take responsibility and again guide my life with connections to my highest wisdom.  When one begins to understand the energetics we inhabit, we can utilize tools of empowerment and the victim mentality just falls away.

More to come.  I will go deeper on each of these subjects in the next installment.

Much Love and Many Blessings,

Leslie